An update

Sorry I've not written a proper update for a while. I've really been struggling with my tiredness over the last week and a bit; I've just been feeling exhausted all the time. I tend to explain my health as having good days and bad days - during the Easter holidays though I'd say I've only had bad days. I'm really really fed up with it now as it's preventing me doing so much and I just want to get on with my life. My exams are due to start in just less than 3 weeks and I don't know what to do because I can't manage to do any revision (as well as feeling tired, my memory is rubbish, I can't concentrate and when I read I can't take anything in) and I know I won't be up to taking the exams. I've been talking about it with my parents a lot this week and also to my good friend Claire. I can't make any firm deicisions til I've spoken to Mrs K when I go back to school on Monday, but I think I might try to sit the exams for maybe 2 of my 5 subjects next month and then depending how my health goes, either sit the others in November or May or just leave with 2 International Baccalaureate certificates. I want to sit my 2 Japanese exams next month as that's my favourite subject, but haven't decided what other subject I might take yet. This week I've been doing nothing really, as I just don't have the energy to do anything more than watch TV, surf the Internet... I'm also beginning to have difficulty sleeping, some nights now it takes me over an hour to get to sleep and last night I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. Sometimes I try going back to bed during the day, but when I get up again I'm just as tired as I was before. I heard from my GP, Dr I, last Wednesday and he said that all my blood test results had come back clear, so he's now sent off the referral to the CFS unit. Hopefully it won't be too long til I receive an appointment, but I expect it will be a couple of months.

I've tried to do a few things this week though despite being so tired. I babysat for H on Thursday which was fine, as she's no trouble at all and it wasn't for too long. I went to the theatre on Saturday night with my family. The play was fantastic and very clever, though I was very tired throughout the performance. My friend Claire came round yesterday and we watched a film together and chatted for ages, so that was nice. And today my best friend, Lizzy, rang me and it was lovely to speak to her as I've not spoken to her for a while. That really cheered me up, so we're trying to arrange meeting up sometime soon :D

And very excitingly, my tickets for the Pink concert arrived in the post on Saturday. I can't believe the concert is on Friday - just 3 days to go! I'm sooooo excited :D I really hope I'm not too tired on Friday though.

I think I'd mentioned in previous posts that I'd ordered Taylor Swift's first album from America and was eagerly awaiting it in the post. Last week I received an email from Amazon saying that the marketplace seller I'd ordered it from had stopped trading with Amazon and if I hadn't received the album then it looked unlikely that I'd receive it. I filed a claim and got my money back, but I'm disappointed that I never got the CD. I've been looking around on the Internet for somewhere else to buy it from, but I'm quite wary of using Amazon Marketplace again after that experience, but the other option would be to order it from a website I've never heard of. So I've not ordered another copy yet, as I'm still thinking about it.

I've been watching lots of TV this week as I've not been able to do much else. I watched The Apprentice on Wednesday, which I really enjoyed. Usually I like a couple of contestants each year, but this time they all seem horrible characters! I was surprised that Majid went out this week, I really thought James should have gone after being in the boardroom twice in a row. I also watched the Doctor Who Easter special on Saturday. I really like David Tennant and am not looking forward to a new doctor next year. After all the hype I expected Planet of the Dead to be amazing, but it wasn't. I thought it was good, but not as good as I expected. On TV this week I'm watching a series called Lifegivers which is on BBC1 every morning from 9am til 9.45am. It's all about blood and organ donation and I think it's really well made. I hope it raises awareness of the need for organ donors, though I think it's a shame that it's not in a prime time slot. Have a look if you can and let me know what you think. I can't wait for the return of Ashes to Ashes next Monday :D

Last Tuesday when I weighed myself I was really disappointed to find that my weight had dropped. I emailed my dietician to let her know and received a reply saying she was quite concerned. However, when I weighed myself again this morning I was relieved to find that I'd not lost any more weight :) So I'm waiting to hear from my dietician to find out what the plan is, as I know I'm still quite a way under my ideal weight.